You See Your Children as Your Fulfillers

June 17, 1994

You see your children as your fulfillers—that your life will be whole and fulfilled through them—you are right—but, you must not wait for them to do and live and be these dreams—YOU, “Eve”, must do and live these dreams FIRST!

How else can they see if it works?!  If spirit, dream is correct, unless they see the physical manifestation.  Don’ Speak it.  BE it!

Then, yes, you will be whole and fulfilled, because you live your dream for your children—then they will follow—seeing your joy.

That is why children’s whose mother’s are sad, frustrated (mad turned in), or controlling (or controlled), can’t “seem” to rise above it.

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Choose and DO.

I want to use my art.

So use it—daily—it’s your art—you don’t need a degree (i.e.-permission of society-- A society that is false—because it isn’t based 100% on eternal truths, just partial.  Made up of people—some just want prestige and others want to serve mankind.  There are varying degrees, and thus, it isn’t whole and perfectly sound and “just” yet.  A “growing society”, filled with all kinds of people, who are just learning and still maturing and growing.  The “degree” is how we measure people by our standards.  But what if those standards are incorrect?

In the art world, of buyers and creators and sellers; People “out there” simply want “good art” and experience.

I want to write stories and publish.

So write, and publish.

I want to leave the world a better place.

So make the cuddle-pack.

I want to have a house of order—it’s coming along…continue!

I want to “see” San Diego.

So see it.  Bring along your children, and enjoy it, together! Don’t let them decide, not quite yet, where to go.  You decide, follow your heart and then, as they see, experience, feel become more balanced, they can have input.  But you initiate.

I want to feel confident about the financial world of business.

So study, do your cuddle pack, get business cards. Talk to successful people.

I want to be an “on-time”, achieving individual.

So be it.  You shall be and are.

Live your dream.

It’s halfway done! Spirit first, then physical!

I want to develop my spiritual gifts and love for healing, my love for God’s light, love and power. Wholeness, completeness, perfection and lifting others around me towards Christ and God. So serve!

You can’t go uphill by thinking downhill thoughts.

I want to be inspiriting to those around. Not because of a handicap, but because of my love, energy and what I learn in the process of living. Using all negatives or shadows to throw light on the True Light; Jesus the Christ, THE LORD.

I want to have family names in the temple.

Calendar in places to go, things to do.

Have a list of “daily things to learn and study”

Example:

30 min –Math; Shortcut math, business books, financial tips

30 min-Art; Portrait, R.S. Poster, painting the children

30 min-Music; try jazz, brush up on “Orff” method, prepare songs for hospital, etc. teach the children

30 min-Science; Herbs, walks, books, museums

30 min—Literature; Read the good books you just bought, write letters home, friends, write stories (the children can each have a story book—each of your publish a book

30 min-Social studies; journal cleanse, Life Story, photo albums, scrapbooks

30 min—physical Fitness; beach, bike riding, walks, get rollerblades—with knee pads, swim lessons, ice skating

MORNING

30 minute clean, except Mondays

Thursday—clean; vacuum, mop

4:00 cleanup—use a workbox for those toys, et. Not picked up

What kinds of things do you want to do this summer?

--to have organized, relaxed and positive days.

I want to swim well. Try to surf?

Sky sailing—Joshua? Candi? Dan?-date

Camping

Museums-all in Balboa

Plays, concerts, Wild Animal Park

Wild animal Park night

San Diego Zoo

Cruise the Harbor to Coronado

Sea World

Universal Studios

Carmel. Couple of nights in a Bed and Breakfast

Marshall Scotty’s water park

Santé Fe New Mexico—visit Arizona relatives

I’d like to design my own Art business cards

Go on Hikes, Bike rides

Water fun

Swimming at Poway pools

Night class

Regular day, or 2 hours to genealogy library, would like to get in a couple of names

Saturday morning temple

Go sing; perform with children at hospital, rest homes

Like to visit the sick on Sundays

Serve as the Spirit suggests

Rest at noon, until 2-ish

Have story time

Would like to clean with the children and save $$--use it to travel and have fun

Have someone read while we clean; divide up jobs; windows, glass, dusting, washing counters, toilets, vacuuming, mopping

Would like to do some of the great ideas in these good children’s project/craft books—1 hour or ½ with each, each day. 

They bless mom. Each balances you! Take advantage of!

An Individual Dot

An individual dot can only stay in one place.  Two dots together can move on a parallel line, forever.  Whether they are close or place far apart, they are still on a parallel plane; an eternal line.

How far does the line go? Forever!

Temple marriage and being equally up on the same line, creates an eternal line.  However, in all marriages, until both are sealed up to eternal life, one person (spouse) is always higher or lower than another’s. Thus, we get this; a skewed line.

Only Christ can heal this discrepancy. Remember, a husband and wife, in being asked to “be one”, it isn’t a dot, heaped upon another dot; where then is the movement, the flowing—the singular line of eternity?

Is this or is this not ONE line?

Working TOGETHER to make an eternal line, the man and woman step into ONE in purpose and DESIGN. Are you both on the LINE of ETERNAL commitment, unconditional LOVE and MARRIAGE=Companionship?

The INNER TUBE Parable

From a dream June 1995

I was trying to stay on my husband’s black, slippery inner tube as we floated together down the swift, large river. And I was slipping off; he couldn’t hold onto me, no matter his strength. The water current was drawing me under. Then, as if an invisible hand swooped down and grabbed me, I was suddenly on a blue, yellow and white inner tube of my own. Now both he and I were floating down the SAME River but rightfully on our OWN inner tubes. Unique and fit just for each of us.  His was large and black, and mine was lighter, smaller and white with splashes of color all over it.  Soon I floated ahead of him and out of sight.  I could feel his anxiety, but I felt free.  My inner tube and his were on the same river, yet each was designed to go where the river of life floated us individually, and to experience different eddies, sights of cliffs and land, even diverting into branches of streams, then coming back into the “mother river”.  We’d occasionally ride the same waves and yet, we’d be in and report in at the same campground each night.  

She was freed to pursue her gifts and talents—if she had stayed on her husband’s inner tube, she would be sucked under and drowned!  Yet, a loving heavenly hand and power, intervened in her soul and body’s behalf and gave her a pretty inner tube of her own, and sent her on her way, down the SAME River of life, towards the same ocean and ultimate goal as her husband’s.  

You Cling to “Truth’s”

6-29-94

You cling to truths.  Unfortunately at times, in reality, truth in the mind of mankind and reality is always changing. 

One must, therefore root and ground oneself on He who never changes-God the Eternal Father-and seeking His will and His truth in each “reality.”

For instance, God could see what a blessing and beautify house this would be for you, but all you could see at first was the reality.  Your mind was always looking for the “dream future home” but that pulled you from the NOW; which is our physical reality at the moment; Thus a split. A split between God’s Truth and your own “reality”.  Creating an; ever-searching-but-not-finding discontent feeling inside you.  That is why each day you must root and ground in TRUE realities and truth.  Namely, that you are an Eternal Being.  That this is a temporary existence-with a veil over your mind, and that this “earth walk” is short.  The Aborigine statement of- attaching meaning to things is what creates unhappiness- is so true.  And so is the truth that how we see life determines our walk here.  In a way, we are the creator’s of our own lives! God will help us overcome the false truths written in our DNA and false traditions passed down.  The temple promises thus.  God promises this through His Son Jesus Christ, our Savior; SAVE-Accept and ask for His help.  I-our soul & body. OR-be miserable.

Save-i-or

Thus, the need to Focus each day on Truth; God’s Truth

And learning/knowing God’s Will-- always of value for our Souls—Souls that  are Eternal.

Wife to a Husband

1994

To husband; if you’re making a decision for me because your father did it, I balk, I complain.

If you feel good about it and it comes clear, as truth does, from a sound principal, then I will do.

I may not like what I do as I “obey”-- that’s my choice.  I don’t have to like it.

My “job” and “call” is as “Giver of Life”.  To give that life I bring forth, through God’s help-- Life.

Life=Light.

To present all the good and lovely and virtuous things to myself and life!

Too much T.V. breaks down. End to violence, or violence will be our end.

Commanded to “Multiply and Replenish” the earth that means our bodies as well.  Done through rest; constant nourishment to body and our Soul; Not T.V. and garbage—Nourishment=proper food and herbs; LIVING.

Why Am I Sooooo Tired?

1994

Things…..when you place value and meaning in them….they ZAP your energy.

What should I do?

I have no energy to put it away, or sort it, or handle it right now….

Release it’s hold on you.  On your spirit and body.

Clear it’s hold on your vital energy.

Stop thinking about it.

Think on the Lord—hold His hand.

Seek God’s Loving will all the day.

Even though to others you may seem lazy—or like you need to clean it up, the idea of a perfectly clean, orderly home must go! And then your energy will return—

Get rid of most toys. Small things; Old clothes.

Getting a new toy or shirt?

Give away an old one to the poor.

Do this with the children too.

Mid clutter—Don’t read junk mail!

Use coupon notebook for car and dry cleaning coupons—Thursday folder.

For dinner movie coupons;  use Friday and ideas of dates.

Order clothes, toys, bedding from catalogs [internet now]; it gives you more time to think about it and earn money.  Eliminates impulse buying.

Fresh produce—eat lots of it! Saturday Farmer’s Markets, Health Food Stores, Local Produce.

Get nice labels for glass not plastics storage in pantry.

Outside a lot with children. Make tiered garden on slope by swings. Exchange grow boxes with storage shed.

Clothing; trim down on.

Styles come and go.

Look and feel good about looks.

Why get up before the sun at dawn?

For your body and spirit…to come and rise together; and to beat the insects up!  They come out with the sun.

Why did the Savior get up before the sun? Do you think He knew something?

Set your alarm if you have to .

One half hour to one hour before the sunrise—changes daily—get to be half hour to hour 1 ½ hours at max after sunsets.  I promise no depression if you do.  You’ll see clearly, walk strong, keep focus, be happy, organized, and creative and accomplish much good.

Make home and living fun. You’ll be able to do this is you get up early and to bed early.

Each room has a purpose.

Music, reading, art, crafts, computer, sewing, cooking, food projects, eating, rest…

We ;have a tendency, when things are going well, and you’re feeling good; the family is happy, etc. to take charge, take credit, and try to do more of your own things.

Then you frazzle out, try this, when things are going and feeling well; go back to your center, to God—as if you were unbalanced and upset, you tend to get busy with those projects you wanted to do.  Simplify, simplify…instead of going gung ho cleaning the walls, or whatever, go outside with the children.  Or go to a museum, etc.  Follow the spirit.  The time to be and serve and love and enjoy is when you are together.  Things will take care of themselves.

When feeling good it’s time to sit down and rest and love the children, watch them learn and grow.  Take joy in them.  Just be with them.  You’ll be greatly bless as you do this.  Read scripture, record impressions, etc.

Watch your thoughts ,humble yourself, pray always, be believing and I will call you blessed.  Do good, be good. Speak no guile, watch your mind. Quiet mind-- quiet tongue.  Forgive all.  “Vengeance is mine, saith the Lord”.  Judgment too…love all serve all, care about all.

Where two or three are gathered....

“Where two or three are gathered together in my name….behold, there will I be in the midst of you.  Fear not to do good…. Therefore, fear not, little flock; do good; let earth and hell combine against you, for if ye are built upon my rock, they cannot prevail.

When You See God’s Strength and Love

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When you see strength and love in another person, glorify God, not that person—it’s God’s Love.

When you feel love and strength from God, he doesn’t want you to give it away (teaching another or telling them why) You keep the love and strength of God by asking them questions, in the light of God’s love.  Those questions are from Him; light, truth and for strengthening them. 

You cannot love another if you give that love away.  You must keep that love you feel and God’s love, shown through you cannot be hidden.

Looking West at Rock Clusters; old mesquite frame

FATHER; Heart pumps out life, and receives

SON; Liver receives, cleanses

HOLY GHOST; Solar plexus, Stomach; determines the quality of blood and centers energy

Receive and feel Father’s love and follow the DIRECTION it takes you.